The Mystery of a Relationship

Its hard or rather very difficult to imagine the amount of hatred or anger that a person can harbor against their ex. Do you get to a point of killing that person? Do you get to the level of lying? Is the scent of the scalp of your once-loved one so sweet that if an opportunity falls in your lap, you are willing to ruin the career of your ex.? Should a person be so engrossed in their own illusionary thoughts, imaginations, ideas that he/she should negate all the positive vibes, acts of restoration, forgiveness that her/his loved one is sending across? Is any sin, wrong, error or a mistake unforgivable at all? There are innumerable questions that have been bogging my mind. I know, I'll never have the answers to these. At least, I've communicated them.

Is it too hard to forgive someone who is doing all his/her best to being forgiven? Every one makes a mistake. Well, I've mine in thousands. Then, I'm an exception. I wonder why people bring egos in their relationship. The moments I spent on my knees in front of her are very cherished memories. May be, I'll never forget that. Hmmm.. I've never done that before or later. That's one exclusive act of love, commitment, worship that I've never duplicated. Never will.

If I have to delve into my own life, then yes, of course, I have been through this stage as well. But then, it was a mixture of both love, anger and hatred. I couldn't accept being at the receiving end at almost all of the time. Being ditched is not what I ever asked for. Breaking apart is a part of a relationship. I should have made a provision for that. Alas, I never did.

I have come to believe that people who go (leave), never come back. Try hard as you may. I remember the old Hindi film song, 'chahe bhejo hazaro salaam, wo phir nahin aate, wo phir nahin aate'.Lesson of the game: Love is a treasure. Once gone, forever gone.

A nation of cowards or is it?

I, due to my personal experiences, encounters and observations, for a considerable period of time held a firm view that we Indians are cowards who are afraid to stand, speak and fight for the truth, our rights, against wrongs, injustice and wicked people. India is not a land of cowards as they want to make us believe. One doesn't need lot of courage to kill. Depravity of mind will do. A mind full of evil and a heart full of hatred and wickedness will suffice to kill and rape. The ones who resort to threatenings, rape, and  murder are the ones who are cowards because they are the ones who are attempting to silence every voice of dissention lest their wickedness is revealed.

And then I came across people like Judge Brijgopal Harkishan Loya, Senior Executive Editor, Ravish Kumar of NDTV, Journalist Niranjan Takle of Caravan Magazine, Journalist Rohini Singh of The Wire, Journlist Josy Joseph of The Hindu, to name a few, all of whom have risked their lives to not only uncover but to speak and stand for the truth during a time when almost all the major news media outlets have continued to exhibit an indifferent attitude and maintain a stoic silence over the disclosures made by these journalists.

These guys too are ordinary individuals just like you and me. They too have a family, relatives and friends who are concerned about the safety and well-being of these guys and who they are accountable to. They too have to go out to the market to buy vegetables, or go for a stroll in the mornings or evenings. They too like ordinary individuals come back home alone at night. They too may have had their fears, but they, while fighting the fear within, staked their all to uncover the truth and stand, speak and fight for the truth.

The amazing thing about it all is that these guys aren't even saved, have not known or  experienced the saving grace of Jesus Christ but for the sake of truth have given it all. They, for the present truth and have staked their eternity. How much more should we Christians, who have known and tasted Jesus Christ and His redemptive work, stand, speak and fight for the truth.

The current evil government has, through multiple organs available at its disposal, attempted to instill fear into our lives and has even succeeded in making us to believe that we are a nation of cowards. That it is futile to stand, speak and fight for the truth. That there would be no one to stand up to defend you. It may all be true but these few guys have shown, while they fought the war against fear within themselves and knowing fully well that they would be an easy prey against the powers that be, a remarkable courage, and are worthy of honor.