Its hard or rather very difficult to imagine the amount of hatred or anger that a person can harbor against their ex. Do you get to a point of killing that person? Do you get to the level of lying? Is the scent of the scalp of your once-loved one so sweet that if an opportunity falls in your lap, you are willing to ruin the career of your ex.? Should a person be so engrossed in their own illusionary thoughts, imaginations, ideas that he/she should negate all the positive vibes, acts of restoration, forgiveness that her/his loved one is sending across? Is any sin, wrong, error or a mistake unforgivable at all? There are innumerable questions that have been bogging my mind. I know, I'll never have the answers to these. At least, I've communicated them.
Is it too hard to forgive someone who is doing all his/her best to being forgiven? Every one makes a mistake. Well, I've mine in thousands. Then, I'm an exception. I wonder why people bring egos in their relationship. The moments I spent on my knees in front of her are very cherished memories. May be, I'll never forget that. Hmmm.. I've never done that before or later. That's one exclusive act of love, commitment, worship that I've never duplicated. Never will.
If I have to delve into my own life, then yes, of course, I have been through this stage as well. But then, it was a mixture of both love, anger and hatred. I couldn't accept being at the receiving end at almost all of the time. Being ditched is not what I ever asked for. Breaking apart is a part of a relationship. I should have made a provision for that. Alas, I never did.
I have come to believe that people who go (leave), never come back. Try hard as you may. I remember the old Hindi film song, 'chahe bhejo hazaro salaam, wo phir nahin aate, wo phir nahin aate'.Lesson of the game: Love is a treasure. Once gone, forever gone.
